It’s okay to not know what you want to do with your life.
One time when I was first starting college, I remember asking my sister Trisha how she knew what she wanted to major in. Her reply still sticks with me today. She said “Jaclyn, I am 30 years old, graduated college years ago, and I still don’t know what the hell I wanna major in.” Guys, she makes such and important point.
Maybe you have a major, or a career path, that is solid and unshakable. If that’s you, allow me to applaud. However, I think for even the most confident person there is always some doubt.
And you know what, that’s a good thing.
It is good to have flexibility, to have a backup plan, to be unsure. God never intended us to be on an easy linear path of certainty. Life isn’t easy and it won’t be until someone invents a time machine and yanks that piece of forbidden fruit out of Eve’s hand.
When I chose Health Care Administration, I was certain. As a second semester junior, I am still certain that it is the right major for me. But does that mean I will most certainly become a Nursing Home Administrator someday? No way! Does that mean I will never decide to switch it at some point in the next year and a half? Who knows, I’m not a fortune teller. The fact is, life is a bunch of steps. My dad says it’s just a big process (but dad, I hate processes).
You choose a major in college because you need a direction, but that is so not set in stone. Nothing in life is. Got goals? That’s awesome, but you need to have flexibility too.
For those of you out there who feel like they’re wandering a bit aimlessly in college, all I have to say is me too! And I have basically been in this major since I was undeclared freshman year. I know people who switch ten times. It’s all totally okay.
This also applies to someone who is in the workforce. So, you thought that your career was perfect and now you are being led a different way? That is not a failure my friend, that is spiritual growth. So, you hate your job, go get a new one. Unemployment is at 4% (did you hear?) everyone is hiring.
God’s plan for us doesn’t look how society says it should. For most of us we aren’t going to graduate college in four years knowing since high school what to major in and work at that one perfect job until we retire. Life just doesn’t work like that. Also, how boring would that be? We may hate change, but it is so necessary.
Many of us put ourselves in a box at eighteen and label it in permanent marker (“Jane Doe, double majoring in physics and biology, pre-med, student body president, will never get a tattoo, Virgo”). What happens then when we realize that the box we are in isn’t the right box? We slowly tip toe out guiltily when we realize we suck at physics, have more Capricorn like traits, find hospitals disgusting, and now have a Chinese proverb tattooed on our ass.
If that doesn’t make God chuckle, I don’t know what does.
Stop trying to find the perfect career that is going to make you happy. The fact is: our happiness does not revolve around what we do. It is about who we are. It is okay to not know. We are going through life with the lights off, but God’s got a flashlight and that tiny little bit that it allows us to see should be more than enough if we are willing to trust Him.
So, take the jump and trust him. Declare the major. Try out the job. Make a big change. Because at the end of the day, you are you and God is God and it’ll all turn out okay.